It's too hard.
This is how I like to justify not doing something that would most likely be really good for me. It would probably bring me great pleasure, maybe more money and serenity, possibly even make my life a lot easier in the long run.
But when I'm in that place, it's easier to stay stuck. It's comfortable. It's known. In a weird way, it can even feel good. It's also a place where I know others are - so at least, I'm not alone - I resist change with the best of them.
This newsletter is coming out late because I knew I needed to change the format. People who are checking their emails on their cell phones have not been able to read my newsletters. I didn't want to change the format! (Stamp foot.) I wanted to post things on Facebook and watch all the seasons of "The Office" and suddenly clearing out my mail inbox became incredibly important for feng shui purposes. Mailchimp changed their way of doing things and I would have to do everything over again from scratch. It was just too hard. People on their cell phones would just miss out. Justification is so easy.
But at some point, it becomes too hard to not change. We start to feel the pain of what it means to stay in the same place, the same pattern, the same story. I want my practice to grow. I want my workshops to be filled to the brim. I'm ready for my story to change. And even though changing this newsletter format was somewhat of a pain in the a$$!, I do want people who are checking their emails on their phones to be able to read this. And, it may need to change again - but I will most definitely need to change again. And again. And again.
A friend of mine was talking to me about the shackles that get placed on us from childhood. They were put on us and they may have held us down for a long while. But now, there is a key. No captors, no jail cell. All we have to do is make a conscious effort to take them off and we're free. That's the catch: the conscious effort.